Just in case anyone cares, I'm not going to post on here anymore.

Moving to http://dismalbeauty.tumblr.com/

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 Sit tight, I'm gonna need you to keep time
Come on just snap, snap, snap your fingers for me
Good, good now we're making some progress
Come on just tap, tap, tap your toes to the beat
And I believe this may call for a proper introduction, and well
Don't you see, I'm the narrator, and this is just the prologue?

Swear to shake it up, if you swear to listen
Oh, we're still so young, desperate for attention
I aim to be your eyes, trophy boys, trophy wives

Swear to shake it up, if you swear to listen
Oh, we're still so young, desperate for attention
I aim to be your eyes, trophy boys, trophy wives

Applause, applause, no wait wait
Dear studio audience, I've an announcement to make:
It seems the artists these days are not who you think
So we'll pick back up on that on another page

And I believe this may call for a proper introduction, and well
Don't you see, I'm the narrator and this is just the prologue

Swear to shake it up, if you swear to listen
Oh, we're still so young, desperate for attention
I aim to be your eyes, trophy boys, trophy wives

Swear to shake it up, if you swear to listen
Oh, we're still so young, desperate for attention
I aim to be your eyes, trophy boys, trophy wives

Swear to shake it up, you swear to listen
Swear to shake it up, you swear to listen
Swear to shake it up, you swear to listen
Swear to shake it up, swear to shake it up

Swear to shake it up, if you swear to listen
Oh, we're still so young, desperate for attention
I aim to be your eyes, trophy boys, trophy wives

Swear to shake it up, if you swear to listen
Oh, we're still so young, desperate for attention
I aim to be your eyes



Mood: I don't even know
Listening to: What's Left Of Me by Nick Lachey
Quote of the day: Oh, we're still so young, desperate for attention
Random something: I love Captain America

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The Fault In Our Stars

Why hey there, bloggy people. I'm not going to apologize for not posting in a long time, because that's getting pretty repetitious, and I don't think anyone cares anyway. So, I'm going to jump right into today's topic, which is actually something super exciting: My book review for The Fault In Our Stars by John Green which came out on January 10th, 2012! So, here's my review (NO SPOILERS!). :)

The summary: Diagnosed with Stage IV thyroid cancer at 12, Hazel was prepared to die until, at 14, a medical miracle shrunk the tumours in her lungs... for now.

Two years post-miracle, sixteen-year-old Hazel is post-everything else, too; post-high school, post-friends and post-normalcy. And even though she could live for a long time (whatever that means), Hazel lives tethered to an oxygen tank, the tumours tenuously kept at bay with a constant chemical assault.

Enter Augustus Waters. A match made at cancer kid support group, Augustus is gorgeous, in remission, and shockingly to her, interested in Hazel. Being with Augustus is both an unexpected destination and a long-needed journey, pushing Hazel to re-examine how sickness and health, life and death, will define her and the legacy that everyone leaves behind.

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Wow, this book...this book. I finished it an hour ago, and I'm still trying to figure out how I feel. I don't really know how to put it into words. John Green, though? He sure knows how to put things into words. I knew he was hilarious. I knew that he was a good writer. I didn't know until yesterday when I started reading TFIOS that he was a literary genius who is possible to make something heartbreaking and meaningful and gorgeous and beautiful and funny and happy and sad and everything all in one book with a shiny blue cover and a signature in the front if you're lucky (mine's purple. I like it.).

Reading the first two chapters was kind of strange, admittedly, because I had already watched John read them (on Vlogbrothers, his and Hank's YouTube channel), so initially I was worried that the whole time I would just hear his voice, like I did during chapters 1 and 2, and not make my own voice for Hazel and Augustus and everybody else. I ended up not needing to even worry about that problem, though. Wait, what problem? Hazel had such a strong voice, such a ridiculously amazing and certainly intelligent point of view. I had no idea that I would think so much while reading this book. The words were insanely beautiful. Yes, beautiful words. Sure, some of them were long and some of them I didn't know what they meant. But they were still all beautiful. I appreciated the long words. It didn't seem pretentious, or old fashioned, or boring. It seemed perfect.

This book might not be jam-packed with action. It is, essentially, not just a story about cancer - it's a story about love. At the heart of it (no pun intended), TFIOS is a love story. And the love in this story is, dare I use the word again? Beautiful. Augustus Waters captured my heart from the first moment. Even his name screams GORGEOUS and AMAZING. I mean, really, Augustus Waters? Definitely considering naming my child Augustus...assuming I have one, that is.
Anyway, back to the point. Augustus was awesome. Hazel was awesome also, and so so so deserving of Augustus's awesome. That's something I love, when I feel that the female character is actually worthy of the amazing male character. Definitely true in this case. Hazel cared so much for Gus, and she was there for him, even when he wasn't at his best. If you've read any of my other reviews, you'll know I'm a serious sucker for romance, and this was no exception. :)
The supporting characters were great too. They all had very distinct personalities, they weren't bland, and they weren't just there in the background. Isaac specifically was pretty cool.

Did I mention the awesome poetry John Green has mixed into TFIOS? I don't normally care too much for poetry, especially since the kind of poems I've been reading lately for lit class are the kind of epic poem ones like Beowulf and Paradise Lost and frankly, I don't like that kind. But John reminded me that there's another kind of poetry, the kind that has words that flow and might not make sense but they sound freaking GOOD. Several books have made me want to read some of that kind of poetry recently, but none so much as this one. I think I'll go back and write down the names of all the poems Hazel talked about, so I can read them myself. Oh, and also An Imperial Affliction sounded awesome. Actually it sounded like the type of book I'd like to read, and like to think that I'd love, but it'd probably go over my head. Well, who knows.

I consider myself a writer, and hopefully someday an author. Ha, I guess I said I didn't really know how to put my feelings into words, and yet here I've gone and written a lot of them. But really, that doesn't begin to express what I want to. I really liked this book. I loved this book. I really did. And someday I hope I can write something as beautiful and deep and meaningful as this book was to me.


P.S. Now, just because I can, I'll leave you with a few pictures.

Mood: tired, but besides that, pretty good :) 
Listening to: Set the World on Fire by Britt Nicole
Quote of the day: “Sometimes, you read a book and it fills you with this weird evangelical zeal, and you become convinced that the shattered world will never be put back together unless and until all living humans read the book.” -The Fault In Our Stars (you guessed it!) 
Random something: Paper Towns is the only other John Green book I've read, but I've been wanting to read Lookin For Alaska and An Abundance of Katherines for a while now. Oh and also, I'm writing this on my laptop. Yes, I have a laptop now. It's pretty sweet.

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NaNoWriMo and goings on

 Hey there! I know I should be posting some more pretties, but my computer hates deviantart these days, and I'm too tired to try and deal with it right now. But I might post the rest eventually.

But anyway, guess what's in 3 days?
November.
And what does November mean?
NANOWRIMO!!!!!!!!!

Oh dear. Yes, National Novel Writing Month is almost upon us. After last year's bad experience, I thought about it, and I really actually want to do it this year. So I've logged in again and started getting ready to go. But then of course that posed the problem....what will I write about?!?!? I really didn't feel like winging it this year, so I thought I would be racking my brain for days trying to think of a plan. But then, when I was telling my dad I had decided to do it again, and my problems and stuff, we were just talking about how to come up with good ideas for plots and such, and literally five minutes after we stopped talking, I came up with my idea!!!!! It was seriously amazing. And I'm actually really excited about this one, guys. I think it might be good. :) I was kind of worried about this year, because I actually want to write something that I'm proud of, something that I would enjoy reading, something that I want to share with people, something that might make a difference. And I think this might be the year I finally achieve that. Of course, I guess it'll actually be next year, because if it does turn out as well as I want it to, then I'll actually take the time to edit it. Who knows, maybe for once I'll have something that ends up being more than a first draft! I'm still kind of nervous telling people what it's about before I've actually written and edited it, but I'm trying to get braver, so here's the summary I have as of now (changes possible in the future).

Who run the world? Girls. -Beyoncé Knowles.

After the third world war (also known as WWW, the Women's World War), society is run by females. All surviving men are imprisoned in different facilities, or work as slaves in factories. The most troublesome men are sent to a place called The Institute, where unspeakable things are done to them, after which the men are never seen again. But Cassandra Grayson has secretly been in contact with her father for years, and she's not happy with the ways things seem for him. When all messages from her father cease suddenly and she comes across a boy who gives her an interesting proposition, Cassandra must make a hard choice. Can she overcome a world where the best and worst sides of women, the sweet and the ruthless reign, or will she settle into complacency? 

Gaahh I feel so weird posting that on here! But I did post it on my NaNo page (add me if you're doing it, I'm Megatron14), so I shouldn't care. Oh and yes, I did get my inspiration from a Beyoncé song. Don't judge please. :P 

Well in other news, I think my busy spell is finally over. Well, not counting the entire month of November. Metro and my concert are both over, and both went well! Everyone complimented me on the flute solo I did with the choir, and even though I was super nervous both times, I didn't mess up. Phew. Also I'm getting over the cold I've had for a week, and even though in the past week I've also had a muscle cramp and issues with my jaw problem, all the things I were stressed about seem to be going away. Thank goodness. :)  

Mood: Tired...ready to just go watch tv!
 Listening to: All The Small Things by Blink 182
Quote of the day: “Kind people have a way of working their way inside me and rooting there.” —Suzanne Collins Random something: I printed up the new Hunger Games movie character posters for my wall! :D

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Pretties #2

Yes, I'm back again (and I would've been sooner, except my computer was being DUMB), with the second part in my series! Last time I showed you some of =Sugarock99's more colorful photographs, today I'll share some of her darker ones. I love both, the dark and the colorful, let me know which ones you like more! And also please let me know if you're enjoying these posts, if everyone hates them, I can stop. :P

This one is a photo manip (duh), I love it :D

I like this one cause it's a lot different from her others :)

Tadaaaa! If you like these, I hope you'll go check out her gallery! http://sugarock99.deviantart.com/

Anyway, on a side note, schools have pretty much all started! Except for some colleges. I'm gonna be pretty busy this year with homeschool, online school, and public school (band)! And baby sitting jobs! Ahh, the joys of being 16. :) See you soon!


Mood: ohhhh yeah
Listening to: Psych (my cousin's watching it)
Quote of the day: “It crosses my mind that Cinna's calm and normal demeanor masks a complete madman.” —Suzanne Collins
Random something: I like you!

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Pretties

Hey guys! I haven't disappeared completely, I promise. And I have a treat for you today! I am going to show you some of my favorite pictures ever. :) Wheeee! Except I have so many, I think I'll have to split them up. It'll be like a series! No, it WILL be a series. I've just decided. Yuppp. I'll try to kind of topic-ize them I guess. But basically, be on the lookout, cause I'll have more amazing pictures coming, not just today!

I would say that I would post some every day, except I don't know if I'll be able to, because I'm actually not home right now. I'm visiting relatives (my dad's side this time). I'm going home tomorrow, will be home for two days, and then I'm going to visit relatives on my mom's side! Haha. And then school starts!! So I'm pretty busy. But I guess I will be home the next 3 days, so I'll try and wrap it up then. But anyway! On to the good stuff.


I have recently found a photographer on deviantArt that I absolutely LOVE. She does underwater photographs, which have always intrigued me. I don't know if anyone watches Americas Next Top Model, but they did an underwater photoshoot on there one time, and it was super cool. So, all of the following photographs are done by =Sugarock99 and they're some of my favorites of hers. Hope you enjoy!

This one might look familiar to some of you - it's on the cover of the book Imaginary Girls!

Part of a series called "Alice in Waterland"

Today I showed some of her more colorful ones, next time I'll share some of her darker ones. Really hope you like them! :]

Mood:  tired, content, happy :) everything?
Listening to:  house noises
Quote of the day: "It's not that you should never love something so much that it can control you.It's that you need to love something that much so you can never be controlled.It's not a weakness.It's your best strength." -The Ask And The Answer
Random something: I'm FINALLY getting over the cold i've had for almost a week!

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Christian t-shirts by JCLU Forever

 Hey guys! I know, I've been absent from here for a while, and now this might not even be considered a *real* post, but hey I have something to tell you about. Which you can probably tell from the title! Yes, I'm here to tell you about a website/clothing brand called JCLU Forever (which stands for Jesus Christ loves you forever). I found out about them a while ago and bought one of their shirts a few years ago, it's pretty cool if I do say so myself! Here's what they say about themselves: "Christian T shirts made by three girls who Love Jesus for girls who Love Jesus. Our shirts are designed to be tools for evangelism. JCLU T shirts have simple faith based statements while being fun and fashionable”. That's very true. They have a lot of cool products, not just t-shirts. They also have a few sweatshirt type things, and some bracelets - the main reason why I'm writing this. They like to give away free stuff (who doesn't love free stuff?!?), and just for writing this blog post they'll send me a free bracelet! Super cool, right?? They also have lots of sales, almost all the time practically. Even if you don't think you're interested, I'd appreciate it if you could just check out their website for a little while to see what their products look like. Here's the link: jcluforever.com . It's pretty amazing how far those girls have come with their business! Pretty inspiring.

Anyway, I guess that's all! Please help support these girls! :)



Mood: very content :]
Listening to: my dad talking on the phone to his mom, my brother in the kitchen, etc.
Quote of the day: "Anything can happen in the blink of an eye. Anything at all."
Random something: I like life. :)

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Heeyyy

 Hi. I haven't posted in like, a month. I'M GETTING BETTER!! :D

But no, really, what's up? I have a list of things I want to do this summer, and one of them is to blog at least once a week. I just realized though, I have two blogs, therefore I guess posting on either one of them counts...so, I guess I might not be posting on here that much anyway. But whatever! Duly warned. :P

Soooo. I had finals on Monday. Well, I guess I can't say final(S), because I only have one public school class...whatever. I survived! Yay! Still don't know how well I did though. I'm a teensy bit nervous, haha. I can never remember the difference between perfect and major, so I basically just guessed. Can't wait to see how good my guessing skills are!

In other big news, I finally got my drivers permit!!!!!!!!!!! Oh yeah. Not that I've driven yet or anything...heh heh. I'll admit, I'm scared. Seriously scared. I don't think I'll be scared once I actually start learning, but - I'm so scared to start!! Yeah I'm a wimp. But it's not my fault! ...No that's a lie, it is. Oh well. Once I start, I'll tell you guys. :) Not that I actually have any idea whooo you guys are...or if you even exist...again, whatever! I'm in a very chill mood, haha.

We're having tacos for dinner. :]
I get to go to the library tomorrow. :]

....Wellllllllllll, off to go eat my tacos! Byyyyyyyyyye.



Mood: chillllll! haha
Listening to: mi madre talking to mi hermano (yeah that's spanish. barely even had to use google translate!)
Quote of the day: The secret to getting ahead is getting started --Mark Twain
Random something: why don't YOU tell ME?

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Music & misc.

Hey there. :)
Yes, it's been a little over a month, but I'm back! And I'm in a rather musical mood.
First of all, this weekend is going to be CRAZY full of band stuff. Final concert is tomorrow night, then we have marching, we're even going to be in a parade on Sunday. My first time marching EVER, besides the two times we've practiced in band. I'm so scared!!!!

But anyway, that's not what this post will mainly be about. I had a bunch of cool songs stuck in my head, and I decided that I kind of just wanted to write about them! So basically this will be like a blog full of songs reviews today. Probably the first 10-15 songs I can think of off the top of my head. :] I'm not entirely sure how I'll do this, cause I wanted to post the lyrics to all of the ones I'm talking about that, but that would make this CRAZY long...so maybe I'll just post links (wait, I've got it, I'll post the chorus and then a link for the rest. Yeeahhh go me!). But anyway! Here goes, guess I'll start with the song that's playing right now. :)

1) Hey There Delilah by Plain White T's.

(this one doesn't really have a proper chorus, but this is basically it)

Hey there Delilah
Don't you worry about the distance
I'm right there if you get lonely
Give this song another listen
Close your eyes
Listen to my voice, it's my disguise
I'm by your side

Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
What you do to me

Full lyrics: Click here

     Ever since I heard this song, I kind of fell in love with it, just like lots of Plain White T's other songs. It's just got such a sweet, whimsical feel to it, and it's not quite melancholy or hopeful. What else is there to say? It's a classic.

 2) Where is the Love by Black Eyed Peas.

People killin' people dyin'
Children hurtin and ya hear them cryin'
Can you practice what you preach
Or would you turn the other cheek?
FATHER FATHER FATHER help us
Send some guidance from above
'Cuz people got me got me questionin'
Where is the love
Where is the love
Where is the love
Where is the love, the love, the love

Full lyrics: Click here

     So, I've actually only heard this song on the radio a few times, and I was really surprised when I found out it was by BEP. I mean, I just never suspected it! But still, it's a really cool song, and I love the message. 

3) Rolling in the Deep by Adele.

The scars of your love remind me of us
They keep me thinking that we almost had it all
The scars of your love, they leave me breathless
I can't help feeling
We could have had it all
Rolling in the deep
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
You had my heart inside of your hand
(You're gonna wish you never had met me)
And you played it to the beat
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)

Full lyrics: Click here

     So, this song is actually the one that made me want to do this whole post in the first place. I just LOVE IT! It's so soulful and has such a cool sound, kind of funky and bluesey and definitely not the normal type of music, which just adds to my love for it. And it's so dang catchy. :] I don't even think I liked this song the first time I heard it, but it definitely grew on me. Like, I'm listening to it right now, and it just makes me smile and want to belt it out along with Adele at full blast (which I probably would if I wasn't getting over a cold). So yeah. SO GOOD.

4) Cut by Plumb. 

I do not want to be afraid
I do not want to die inside just to breathe in
I'm tired of feeling so numb
Relief exists I find it when
I am cut

Full lyrics: Click here

     This song is just so breathtaking. I swear I want to cry every time I hear it. This song and I actually have a funny relationship, though...I first heard it at my friends house about a year ago and I thought it was horrible, because it was glorifying cutting. But then I heard it again on a tv show last week (20 points to whoever can guess the show!) and I realized that it actually meant much more than that, and that I was absolutely in love with it (and it doesn't help that the scene they played it in was AMAZING too <3 haha). Seriously, even if you have the same misconception about the lyrics that I did at first, you must listen!! And it really does remind me of Evanescence...maybe another reason I love it. :]

5) Near To You by A Fine Frenzy. 

Near to you, I am healing
But it's taking so long
'Cause though he's gone
And you are wonderful
It's hard to move on
Yet, I'm better near to you.

Full lyrics: Click here

     This is another of those breathtakingly sadly beautiful songs...but still so different from the last one I talked about. I've never heard any of A Fine Frenzy's other songs, but I really must change that, because I love this song so much. Like FOR REAL. It's kiiiind of amazingly awesome. Yup.

Okay! Well, my 10-15 has changed to 5, but hey IT'S A GOOD FIVE. Actually, I could've done better, so maybe I'll have to do this again! And it was fun, too. =D

But yeah, that's all for now. See you next time, and LISTEN TO MUSIC! Yeah!

Mood: quite happy!
Listening to: Thistle and Weeds by Mumford & Sons (another amazing song I should've mentioned)
Quote of the day: "You know what? I love what a dirty mind I have."
Random something: uhhhhh...heeeeeyyyy. ;)

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Catching up

 Hello again! My life has been rather busy and at times hectic lately...hence the no posts. Except for that one weird thing where my email got hacked and sent a post to here...but I deleted that. :)

Anyway! Like I said, I have been rather busy. Things usually get like that this time of the year. But, isn't this time of the year lovely?? We've had some perfectly beautiful weather, and some perfectly terrible weather, but that's Spring in Oregon for you! Most of us tried and true Oregonians are used to it by now, but it can get rather irritating at times.

The biggest piece of news I have to offer up is that I spent my spring break (March 17th-26th) in Mexico! Just like last year, I went on a missions trip with my church and another church in the area, we had about 30 people and we built a house! And, like last year, it was AMAZING. The trip helped my attitude and views on life and people SO much. Like I've been saying, I got my happy back! (If you want to read my posts about last year's trip, click here and here)

I'm also working on making the Mexico slideshow, like last year, and it takes up SO MUCH TIME! Also, our presentation is this Sunday, so I'm running out of that time! But me and my friend are putting in a lot of effort to it, so I hope that people enjoy it, and we don't have some of the technical problems we had last year!

Another great thing that's happened is one of my friends from Taiwan visited us!!!!!!!!!!!! Yes, it was so exciting! Her and her husband are here visiting in Oregon, and we got to spend Monday afternoon and evening with them, plus some time on Tuesday. It was absolutely an awesome visit, and I'm so glad we got to spend time with her here in America and show her how we live. My parents and younger brother stayed in her house the last time we were in Taiwan, so it was a funny exchange. :]

 Well, that's mostly what I have to say...I do have something else, but I think I'll put it in a separate post, and hopefully I'm getting picked up soon to go work on the slideshow! Oh, and yes I know I never posted my Lost Hero review, mainly because I didn't want to take the time and write one without spoilers. But I might, or I'll just post my spoiler review. So I haven't forgotten! And, to send you off with, a picture of me and some friends in Mexico. :)

Mood: happy
Listening to: blog playlist! haha, "Break your heart"
Quote of the day: "Finnick?" I say, "Maybe some pants?"
He looks down at his legs as if noticing his outfit for the first time. Then he whips off his hospital gown leaving him in just his underwear. "Why? Do you find this" -- he strikes a ridiculously provocative pose -- "distracting?"
I laugh. Boggs looks embarrassed and Finnick looks more like the guy I met at the Quarter Quell"— Suzanne Collins
Random something: uh i had a random something but i forgot it!! :( oh yeah...my brother's having surgery today...weird.

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